My 4 Day Weekend

I took off of work Friday and got a 4 day weekend since we were closed Monday.  It was 4 days of being out of a structured setting and access to food.  Yes, I ate.  I ate A LOT.  I have realized that I do much better when I'm at work.  I don't have full access to my fridge and pantry all day.  I have something to keep me busy.  I have a nice water cooler to get tons of nice, cool water.  I know it will take me time to break my old habits.  Friday there was Pizza, Sunday was Red Velvet Cake and Monday was french fries.  I went over 300-400 calories each day.  That's not great, but I'm okay with that.  But Saturday, oh Saturday was seriously a FATurday.  The kids wanted nachos and cinnamon twists so I made the mistake of stopping by Taco Bell on the way home from New Orleans.  I thought, well, it can't be that bad.  So I ordered what I normally would - a grilled stuffed beef burrito with nachos and a root beer.  Let me tell you, I had no idea how many calories were in that meal.  I thought it would be 700-800 maybe.  Well, total was 1,600 even!  The burrito itself was almost 900!  Just thinking about that now makes me sick.  Needless to say, I went over my calories for Saturday by 1,590.  Fail #1.  

I did go to the gym Friday before I picked the kids up at school.  But the other 3 days I didn't step foot in the door of the gym.  About the only 'exercise' I got was cleaning house.  Fail #2. 

This weeked made me realize just how much I need structure and planning.  I can't do this all on my own.  I need My Fitness Pal.  I can't guess at how many calories are in something.  I can't just wing it when it comes to eating out.  I know some people have a cheat day, but I think I will have to wait a while before I allow myself to have one.  It's not safe for me at this point in my journey.  I can tell a huge difference in how I feel today.  It's not a good feeling.  Of course, there's the guilt about wasting the last 4 days, but I also don't have as much energy.  I feel bloated and sluggish and just want to go back to bed.  I made a commitment to myself that this time would be different.  I wouldn't lose a few pounds and then think I got this and quit only to gain them back.  Today, it's back to clean eating and gym time.  Happy Tuesday everyone!