I took off of work Friday and got a 4 day weekend since we were closed Monday. It was 4 days of being out of a structured setting and access to food. Yes, I ate. I ate A LOT. I have realized that I do much better when I'm at work. I don't have full access to my fridge and pantry all day. I have something to keep me busy. I have a nice water cooler to get tons of nice, cool water. I know it will take me time to break my old habits. Friday there was Pizza, Sunday was Red Velvet Cake and Monday was french fries. I went over 300-400 calories each day. That's not great, but I'm okay with that. But Saturday, oh Saturday was seriously a FATurday. The kids wanted nachos and cinnamon twists so I made the mistake of stopping by Taco Bell on the way home from New Orleans. I thought, well, it can't be that bad. So I ordered what I normally would - a grilled stuffed beef burrito with nachos and a root beer. Let me tell you, I had no idea how many calories were in that meal. I thought it would be 700-800 maybe. Well, total was 1,600 even! The burrito itself was almost 900! Just thinking about that now makes me sick. Needless to say, I went over my calories for Saturday by 1,590. Fail #1.
I did go to the gym Friday before I picked the kids up at school. But the other 3 days I didn't step foot in the door of the gym. About the only 'exercise' I got was cleaning house. Fail #2.
This weeked made me realize just how much I need structure and planning. I can't do this all on my own. I need My Fitness Pal. I can't guess at how many calories are in something. I can't just wing it when it comes to eating out. I know some people have a cheat day, but I think I will have to wait a while before I allow myself to have one. It's not safe for me at this point in my journey. I can tell a huge difference in how I feel today. It's not a good feeling. Of course, there's the guilt about wasting the last 4 days, but I also don't have as much energy. I feel bloated and sluggish and just want to go back to bed. I made a commitment to myself that this time would be different. I wouldn't lose a few pounds and then think I got this and quit only to gain them back. Today, it's back to clean eating and gym time. Happy Tuesday everyone!